I Miss You

15. taken since 12.12.11 by the most perfect-est guy ever. ask me anything, anytime.

so I met this guy on omegle. Omegle! I know, it’s weird. but he made me smile tonight. he seems like a really nice person.

Anonymous: lets fuck. because your gorgeous..

uhh. didn’t I just post an entire thing about loving my boyfriend so much? like, who is this?? I wouldn’t be mad because you’re just stating somethingg, but I wanna know who sent me this.. lmfao

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xoparamorexo:
this boy, is probably the most amazing-est person in my life. he means everything to me. I’d be so lost without him. I haven’t seen him in almost a week and it’s driving me crazy. I know that a week isn’t really that long, but for me it is. I’m so crazy in love with him. no one would, or could, ever understand how much he means to me. when I’m not with him, I just sit in my room all day, doing nothing. and when I don’t talk to him.. well, my life is like hell. You’re probably wondering “he has to have some flaws that annoy or bug you, right?” and yes, he does. but I can ignore them because they don’t matter.
His name is Austin. the way we met.. well it was different. and I get called a slut because of things. I had a boyfriend before him, and I cheated on my boyfriend, about 5 times, not with just him, but 2 other guys. yeah yeah yeah, call me a whore. I don’t care. When I met Austin, I felt like I could trust him, I could tell him anything. well anyways, it was December 9th or 10th, that my ex broke up with me. He thought I was going to cheat again with Austin. The break up didn’t really seem to affect me much.. I was surprised. But, I was somehow fine, and so was he. On December 12, 2012, Austin and I were sitting in lunch together. I told him that me and my ex broke up. I can’t really remember what happened then, but I do remember my other friends facial expressions being like “oh.. uhm what? why??” I just told them he broke up with me. So then, like a minute later, I asked Austin out, right then and there. He said yes. and we just kinda held hands during lunch haha.
About a month or less into our relationship, I cheated. about 3 times, with a kid named Ethan. I didn’t tell Austin about that until about 4 months into the relationship though.. I would ruin everything. our relationship. Even my life. I was so scared that night I texted him and told him.. I was shaking, I hurt myself; I was just crying so hard.. he flipped out.. he kept telling me he didn’t know what to do; like, he didn’t want to lose me but he said there really was no other option. he said that if he stayed, he didn’t want to get hurt again.. but if he left then, well I don’t really know..
He stayed. I still cried that night because he said his brother was listening in on our convo over the phone after I told him, and he said his brother told his family.. I was terrified. Now, his mom does not like me at all.. that’s understandable.. i don’t really know about his dad, I think he doesn’t care or something, I just don’t really know. But now that everything’s all okay and shit, I feel like he’s gonna leave me. I feel like that every minute of every day. he told me about a week ago, that he felt we were more like “mutual friends” and that he feels like I don’t love him anymore.. My stomach was in knots. I was speechless. I thought he was trying to tell me that he wanted to breakup.. I told him that I love him more than anything in the world. I don’t understand why he’d think I don’t love him.. He’s my everything. My world. I’m in love. I don’t care if I’m only 15. That doesn’t mean shit to me. we’ve been dating for almost half a year and it’s been great, minus all the bullshit I put him through. we’ve been dating for 5 months or so. almost 6 months. He’s the only person I tell everything to anymore. Well, actually, I tell lots to my best friend, Emily too. hmm.. I don’t really think there’s much left to say. I finally get to see him tomorrow.. err, today.. haha. I should go to sleep! I need to be awake before noon so I can see my babyboy<3 yes, I did just call him that. get over itt. C; Well I love you AMK, 12/12/11. forever and always, I promise. nuhnight<3 ;*

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